Serenity

Plugging away at Frost. Getting there slowly but surely. Had an excellent writing day yesterday, after a bit of a dry spell. Back on the horse, just have to push through the tough parts.

I've been feeing kind of untethered. Hectic and chaotic inside, and this morning I found the source of calm I'd almost forgotten I have. My fella is my the one person who can always bring me down from the edge. His easy, calm manner brings me tranquility when my spirit feels like a bird battering against a cage. He brings me back, and suddenly I can breathe again. He makes me feel safe. With life being so demanding and frantic, I haven't taken the time to appreciate this. I'm always running.

But this morning I awoke to the touch of gentle fingers brushing hair from my face, and opened my eyes to the smiling eyes of my fella. The house was quiet and the room held the dusky blue of the early morning half light, and I couldn't remember a more perfect moment of serenity and peace. We stayed like that for a good twenty minutes, just being together, not saying anything because we don't have to.

When his whispered, "I love you" broke the silence, I knew in my heart that there was no place I'd rather be and nobody I'd rather be with, because I believed him, and more importantly, because when I whispered those words back to him, I believed them.

Got a single red rose for Valentine's day, which is sitting in front of my laptop as I write this. I prefer a single rose to a dozen any day of the week. More romantic, and just means so much more.

My little guy smiled at me, wrapped his little arms around my legs and looked up at me, saying, "I yuv you mama." I've been so blessed.

Back to the grind. I hope everyone is having a good weekend.